I’m pregnant now. I told a lot of friends early on. I never considered keeping it a secret. I adopted the refrain “Well if I miscarry I’ll just end up…
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I disappeared for a bit. A few things happened that left me shrinking. Shrinking from others is one thing, but shrinking from your own mind is a…
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There are times when terrible, cataclysmic things happen, and you grip the walls, demanding an answer on how the walls could look on and not intervene…
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This is it. It’s the beginning. This is how it starts. And yet here you are in the middle of it, just stopped, holding your things: all the things you…
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I hate that sound, I said. About the train horn in the distance, at night. We used to hear that sound in Edmonton, my dad said. Lying in bed. At ten…
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When the pandemic first started, and we were asked to stay home, some people ran into the ring of the suffering Olympics and held up their tiny internet…
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You are lost. The days churn my ankles, milking me out, from underneath my table of disbelief. I press into its legs, fracturing them at their joints…
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I wrote this piece in October 2019: before the pandemic, before my mother died, and one year after my grandmother’s death. I wrote it from a place of…
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Oh it’s HEAVEN out right now! Is it raining there? It’s nice here. We are a seven minute drive apart, but the mountains make many mini-weathers in North…
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Content warning: this text contains descriptions of dying. That’s gonna be boring, my dad says. Can we add this to it? I look at the salami stick my dad…
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I’ve recently gotten myself into the voluntary loop of listening to Vivaldi’s Four Seasons, recomposed by Max Richter. I do this thing with a good…
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My brother got a Dampfmaschine (German for a steam engine) as a gift when he was a kid. The point of it, I guess, was to see the inner workings of an…
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